my heart is fragile

I miss You by Nikki Cleary

2008-06-30T12:09:00.000-07:00

I super love this song, it expresses what I feel right now.

I miss you by Nikki Cleary

Ah...ah...ah..Ah...ah...ah..

Saw you yesterday
We were talking
Comparing notes
What's happening
What's not
What you wanted
What you got

Now you're on your way
It's all about that
And nothing else
I feel like I'm small
And I don't matter in that world
If I try to tell you would you laugh in my face
Tell me to grow up when I come clean and say

[Chorus]
I miss you
The way we used to be
Back when you calling me
Everyday (Yeah)
You wanted to come over
I miss you
But it's different and it's stange
Now that everything's changed
And it scares me 'cause it's weird that you don't notice
I miss you
I....I....I.....
Yes I do (yeah)
I....I....I.....

Maybe it's just me
But I don't think so
I'm not insecure I just know
What's real
What is gone and what I feel

I remember when we used to say that
We'd never change
Forget where we've been
I wanna go there again

If I tried to tell you
You'd turn into that kind
Wouls you put up your defense
Say I was loosing my mind

I miss you
The way we used to be
Back when you calling me
Everyday (Yeah)
You wanted to get closer
I miss youBut it's different and it's stange
Now that everything's changed
And it scares me 'cause it's weird that you don't notice

Don't you ever see my face outside your window
Are you up so high you can't get back around
Will you think of me some night when you get lonely
Will you need me
When you're on your way down

(Ooh)
Saw you yesterday
We were talkingComparing notes
What's happening
What's not
What you wanted
What you got

[Chorus (repeated)]
I miss you
The way we used to be
Back when you calling me
Everyday (Yeah)
You wanted to come over
I miss you
But it's different and it's stange
Now that everything's changed
And it scares me 'cause it's weird that you don't notice
I miss youThe way we used to be
Back when you calling me
Everyday (Yeah)
You wanted to get closer
I miss you
But it's different and it's stange
Nothing stays the same
And it scares me 'cause it's weird that you don't notice
I miss you
I....I....I.....I miss you
I....I....I.....Yes I do
I....I....I.....I miss you

Lyrics from www.lyricsmode.com

You are not my FIRST.

2008-06-26T13:45:00.000-07:00

If you ask me if you are the first person to hold my hand,
I'll answer you, "It'll be a lie to say 'YES'. "

If you ask me if you are the first person to tickle me,
I'll say, "Sorry, boy, unfortunately, you aren't."

Kung tatanongin mo ko kung ikaw ang unang taong hinigaan ko sa lap,
Sasabihin ko na, "Hindi, rin."

Kung tatanongin mo ko kung ikaw una kong niyakap,
Isa lang ang isasagot ko sayu, "Anio."

If you ask me if you are the first person that I lied to,
The answer will be really obvious, "No!"

If you ask me if you are the first person that made me laugh hysterically,
There is only one answer, " It's so not YOU." *laughing hysterically*

Kung tatanongin mo ako kung ikaw ang una kong kinantahan,
Aba'y magpasalamat ka at hindi ka ang una.

Kung tatanongin mo ako kung ikaw ang una kong nakasayaw,
Magpasalamat ka ulit at hindi ka nabiktima ng aking mga paa.

If you ask me if you are the first person that slept on my shoulders,
I'll be proudly to say, "You are certainly not the first person to use mine."

If you ask me, "I'm your FIRST LOVE, right?"
I'll smile and tell you frankly, "I'm sorry, dear, but, let me tell you, YOU ARE NOT MY FIRST."

I'll know I''ll hurt you this way,
But Ikaw ang una kong sinabihan ng "I Love You".

totally over him... maybe?

2008-06-22T18:26:00.001-07:00

uhmm. yeah.
I don't know if I'm really over him.
I guess I just don't feel that "spark" anymore.
Whenever I talk to him I don't feel any "special" aura (unlike before).
He's not really special to me anymore.
He's like a trash now. haha. nah, just kidding.
I still have MEMORIES of him.
Memories that I cannot forget.
He really is something.
I wish I can just treasure those memories.
I want to say good bye to you,
and thank you for giving me happy and heart breaking memories.

Sonnet for Jantzen

2008-06-22T18:05:00.000-07:00

Did I deserve to be treated like this?
I thought everything was going smoothly
Wow! I didn’t even get a tender kiss.
Won’t you at least love me tenderly?

What seems to be the problem may I ask?
My phone’s sitting, waiting to be picked up.
I don’t expect you to hide with a mask.
A word or two, can’t you afford to drop.

I understand why you do this to me.
You might think I am not really serious.
I will give you time, let you think to see,
That my love for you is true and precious.

But I must move on, I will let you go.
I love you truly, I want you to know.

Memories of You and I

2008-06-22T15:28:00.000-07:00

You walked me to school.

You tickled me 'til I cried.

You teased me 'til I turned red.

You talked to me in the night.

You put your arms around me

To comfort and make me feel passably.

Trusting you would feel all right,

You cried on my shoulders.

Oh! How I missed those times;

Times when I'm the happiest

The feeling of awkwardness was there,

Though we both tried to avoid it.

Now, I try to forget those memories.

Even your face, I keep erasing from my head.

But I guess you're a part of me now.

My world is empty without You in it.

why can't i forget you?

2007-11-17T10:47:00.000-08:00

why does it hurt?

why do i still miss him?

why can't i forget him?

WHY?WHY?WHY?

why dont you just leave me alone?

why do i keep remembering your face?

why do i still get hurt whenever i see you?

why do i have to suffer this kind of pain?

why do i keep dreaming about you?

my heartche to him!

2007-11-05T19:00:00.000-08:00

bakit kailangan niyang guluhin ung buhay ko?.. ang saya saya ko na ehh..
nakikita niya ba na im trying to forget all about him..
yung mga pagpapantasya ko!
naku! sana namn naramdamn niya yun!
hindi niya na nga naramdaman yung isa, pati ba nman tong bago hindi niya marmdamn?!?!
SOBRANG MANHID NA NIYA HA!!
hindi ba niya nakikita na ang ganda ng buhay ko..
maaliwalas na ang buhay ko..
anu ba talga siya ha?
pinaglalaruan niya ba ako?
nakakasakit ka na ha!
TAMA NA!
kung gusto mo akong kausapin, wag namn yung ON AND OFF! kasi namn, nahihirapan ako..
inaalis ko pa lang ung past.
wag ka munang pumasok pede?!?!